Cinta Rockmelon: 7 minggu

Assalamualaikum...

I muncul lagi dengan mengomel-ngomel lagi.

Hehe.

Rasanya kadang-kala perlu menulis sebab sebahagian stress releaser since dah lama juga I meninggalkan dunia menulis diary.

So, nak kata stress, taklah juga.

Cuma update tak bagi berhabuk. Hehe... 

Bila I kira-kira, 7 minggu je tinggal (dah tolak hari yang tak perlu).

Rasanya memang kerja-kerja ad hoc rupanya.

Ingatkan masa belajar kat UIA je dulu buat gini.

Dulu join program mesti ad hoc.

Dan teringat dulu cakap kat Cik Nad memang tak suka kerja-kerja ad hoc ni.

Dan rupa-rupanya, kenduri kahwin sendiri jadi gitu.

Owwwhhhhh~!!

Baru perasan.

Huhu...

So, lately banyak kerja kenduri ni dah pending kejap since ayah warded almost 2 weeks.

Keperluan ke sana ke mari rumah dan hospital lagi memerlukan.

Dan I realize yang rupanya macam ni dugaan Si Darah Manis ini.

Tapi apa-apa pun majlis perlu diteruskan.

My parents pun dah pesan siap-siap.

Berdoa banyak-banyak agar ayah recover dan both of them or any person which related to me are able to attend my nikah and wedding day.

Hopefully semuanya dipermudahkan dan selamat hendaknya.

So, disaat-saat yang 'kritikal' ni, banyak yang belum settle.

Kalaulah ada superpower... haish~ 

Lama dah...

Dan Mac pun berakhir...

Rasa nak putar masa kebelakang balik so that banyak lagi yang boleh cover.

At this moment, every seconds are precious.

Alhamdulillah disaat-saat macam ni Encik Tunang selalu cover I especially jadi driver.

Ke hospital, ke interview dan untuk banyak benda.

Thanks to him for be there for me...

*Even though keeping ask for in return from me. Nanti claim kat akhirat ye Encik Tunang. Hehe...*

And million thanks for those who never fails to lend your ears and eyes.

And those who read this too~!

Extra hugs and kisses for you~

So, please wait for my next entry ya'~!

^.^

Living with cancer...

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera...

This entry might reveal the real life of me and my family.

Just read the title, you might guess what it is.

So, let's begin with the real life of me who live with a cancer person which is my own beloved Ayah.

Survive with lung cancer...

My Ayah is not a smoker (like people always ask Ayah that statement) and something might trigger his cancer.

Started with heavy coughing and luckily detected earlier.

After I graduated on June 2012, went back home and that is the beginning of everything.

I still remember that a day before my convocation day, having my photoshoot with Cik Nad, and accompanied by my younger brother and sister, received this kind of news, makes the world suddenly frozen.

To tell the truth, I can't react normally.

Might be due to my 4 years as a counselling student; jadi hati batu barangkali.

Then, the event of my engagement day.

Aware of these kind of mix feelings; happy + sad + negatives feelings.

Ayah just said, 'Teruskan pertunangan ni. Nak tunggu ayah, belum tentu bila ayah boleh sihat.'

Alhamdulillah everything runs smoothly...

Along these 6 months, he started to walk with tongkat, done his kimo (12 pusingan dan minggu lepas yang terakhir), emotionally unstable, rambut gugur sikit, his appetite sometimes good and sometimes become less and many things has changes...

Even though all these changes is changing him, but he always be positives.

That is my Ayah.

Always believe in that.

Back to the early of 2012, when I did my internship.

One of my client had leukemia...

I managed to handle the case but then...

Diduga oleh Nya kepada diri sendiri.

How am I going to handle my own issue which have similarities?

Living with cancer is something couldn't be simply put a proper word in it.

To tell the truth, I'm hati batu.

By hook and crook I have to face it.

Sometimes I don't know how to help him.

Most of the time I help my Ibu because she's the one who handle everything.

And once Ibu said to me, 'Awak tak ada hati ke nak tanya Ayah okay ke tak...'

I have the answer but I remain silent.

Biarlah jawapannya rahsia...

It is not that I didn't do anything or help but I prefer to make it secretly.

That is another side of me.

And within these 2 months ++, my wedding is very soon.

I'm happy for it but at the same time, this happiness is surrounded by sadness and mix feelings.

Mungkin Dia nak duga kami dan pada masa yang sama mengingati Dia...

And today, he meets the doctor...

Seems that Allah menduga lagi...

Mungkin hujan lagi barangkali tapi percaya yang suatu hari nanti langit akan cerah kembali...

Insha'allah~

Checklist Kahwin

Hye readers~

Tengah mood nak update blog lagi.

Hehe...

Kali ni mood nak buat Checklist Kahwin.

Bila buat checklist ni teringat zaman-zaman belajar dulu.

Buat master plan pe sume.

So, sekarang I jadi wedding planner untuk program sendiri.

Hehe.

Tapi PM mestilah ayah I.

I ni sekadar PC je.

Hehe.

Bila google, banyak je versi dan info yang I dapat.

So, pe lagi, buatlah checklist sendiri memandangkan takut-takut benda-benda kecil ada yang tertinggal nanti.

Hopefully bolehlah cover dalam masa yang terdekat ni...

Note to Cik Nad: 

Anda juga terlibat sama. Cumanya tak tau nak bagi jawatan pe.

Hehe...

So, hopefully this checklist will be handy tools for my parents, my fiance and me soon~

Semalam, hari ini, esok, lusa, tulat dan bila-bila

Fuh! title punyalah panjang.

Tak ada idea nak letak title pe.

Anyway, hye readers~

Tengahari sudah.

Dikala ini, ibu sibuk di dapur dan anak daranya pulak sibuk berblogging.

Hoh! Perangai~

Hehe...

Dah berhari-hari nak update blog tapi tak tercapai.

So, sementara ada idea ni, eloklah menulis sesuatu.

First of all, alhamdulillah interview semalam dah selesai.

Nervous bukan main lagi.

Tapi bila dalam bilik, dah macam tak ada perasaan.

Semua soalan yang diajukan memang tak ada apa yang I baca.

Dan I pun tak tau la pe menda-menda yang I jawab.

So, result tak taulah macam mana nanti.

Okay ke?

Hmm...

Selesai temuduga semalam, bermula hari ini, I akan sibuk kembali menguruskan hal kahwin.

Owh! terlupa...

Insha'allah dalam masa lebih kurang 2 bulan lebih ni, I akan jadi isteri orang.

Ouch! Sounds like berat tanggungjawabnya.

Well, sebenarnya it was decided by my parents and made a first move for it.

Not requested by my fiance's side.

Since I pun tak tau bilanya nak posting dan my fiance pun kalau rezekinya untuk sambung belajar di overseas (insha'allah~), maka itu yang menyebabkan my parents tak berfikir panjang.

Sorang dok sana, sorang dok sini.

Bila fikir-fikir balik, entah bilanya nak kahwin nanti.

Yang si dia confirm selepas setahun baru balik Malaysia.

Soon, bulan 7 puasa, bulan 8 raya dan si dia akan berlepas pada bulan 9.

So, tak ada masa yang sesuai lagi.

Nak ikutkan my parents nak menikahkan je dulu.

But then, nak jugak buat makan-makan sikit.

So, kenduri besar terus jawabnya....

Alhamdulillah juga Tok Kadi kata ON.

Dewan sekolah pun dapat jugak.

Lagilah dekat dengan rumah. 

Nak jalan kaki pun boleh sangat (I mean berjoging. hehe~)

Scenery dewan sekolah tu atas bukit.

Ehem...

Juga kami adalah bakal pengantin pertama yang berkenduri disitu sebab Guru Besarnya baru buka kepada orang ramai untuk buat kenduri atau majlis disitu...

So, rezeki kami...

Alhamdulillah~

So, insha'allah, bulan Mei adalah bulan yang dinantikan...

Doakan segala urusan dipermudahkan~

Ameen~