Jul 31, 2009

Magic Words 4 Today

Jangan tertarik kepada seseorang kerana parasnya, disebabkan keelokan rupa paras dapat
menyesatkan. Jangan pula tertarik kepada kekayaannya, kerana kekayaan dapat musnahkan diri. Tertariklah kepada seseorang yang dapat membuatmu tersenyum, Kerana hanya senyuman yang dapat membuat hari-hari yang gelap menjadi cerah. Secerah langit yang disinari mentari.

Magic Words 4 Today

Jangan tertarik kepada seseorang kerana parasnya, disebabkan keelokan rupa paras dapat
menyesatkan. Jangan pula tertarik kepada kekayaannya, kerana kekayaan dapat musnahkan diri. Tertariklah kepada seseorang yang dapat membuatmu tersenyum, Kerana hanya senyuman yang dapat membuat hari-hari yang gelap menjadi cerah. Secerah langit yang disinari mentari.

Info about counselling Part 1

Perkataan masalah / problem tidak boleh digunakan semasa sesi kaunseling. Sepatutnya menggunakan perkataan isu / concern. Lebih selesa dan tidak menyebabkan CL bertambah kurang yakin terhadap CR.

P/s:
Counsellor = CR
Client = CL

Antara minat, kelayakan dan pilihan

Didalam kehidupan anda, adakah anda dapat memiliki ketiga-tiganya? Adakah ia menepati dan sentiasa member kebahagiaan kepada anda? Ann pasti tidak semua yang memiliki apa yang diingini dan begitu juga dengan Ann. Kehidupan lampau Ann mengajar erti bagaimana kesakitan, keperitan dan kepayahan untuk memiliki ketiga-tiganya. Frankly to say that Ann bukanlah bijak, talented or genius. Ann sendiri pun tak pernah plan untuk sampai ke tahap ini.

Dulu-dulu masa lepas SPM, Ann nak sangat jadi nurse because of my condition (Ann will tell you guys in the next entry). Result SPM agak ok even though taklah sehebat mana pun tapi enough untuk melayakkan diri in that field. My dad pn ada jer tanya about this and he emphasized on these 3 magic words: minat, kelayakan dan pilihan. He never agreed with my decision but yet still giving me chance to do according to my desire. So, isilah borang UPU for the next steps but unfortunately, tak dapat untuk jadi nurse. At the same time, that moment, Ann sedang melanjutkan study in STPM. So, Ann decided to keep continue in that level. Orang kata STPM sangat susah dan macam Upin & Ipin kata...betul, betul, betul~! So Ann pun kecundang dan keciwa yang teramat sangat. Diibaratkan seperti Ann terjatuh dari KLCC dan jatuhnya diatas besi yang keras. Bukan diatas tilam yang empuk. So mesti anda dapat bayangkan betapa sakitnya ketika itu. And of course my dad blame me until I feel so hard for me to wake up and gain my strength back.

In the same year, dapatlah offer letter dari International Islamic College (IIC) yang offered several courses. Salah satunya adalah Diploma in Early Childhood Education (ECE). Very interesting but in that time, I had a dilemma. Disebabkan Ann nak sangat-sangat jadi nurse or in any medical field, Ann nak try MAHSA. Amik Diploma in Physiotherapy. So Ann pun berfikir. Dua-dua course ni very interesting to discover. Kedua-duanya IPTS but yet still different in term of the fees. MAHSA sangat mahal because lebih kepada medical program dan tak macam IIC. My dad pun dah pesan awal-awal yang dia tak nak support dari segi fees. Dia rela anaknya amik PTPTN because dia nak Ann lebih responsible with what am I doing. More focused and tak nak pisang berbuah dua kali. In the end, I decided to be in IIC. Alhamdulillah Ann tak regret pun tapi sangat bersyukur dan Ann rasa sesuai dengan jiwa Ann.

Bercakap tentang course tu, Ann tau Ann akan deal with young children but masa tu taklah suka sangat budak-budak ni. Besa-besa je. Tapi makin lama Ann makin berminat dan terus jatuh cinta. Dari apa yang Ann dah belajar, ada juga input-input dari segi Sains and medical. Ann banyak belajar pasal human behaviour, development and thinking. Ia dinamakan psychology. Tapi Ann hanya emphasized on young children below 7 years old. So, ianya sangat interesting. Walaupun hanya train sebagai preschool teacher or caregiver but we are well-trained. Ramai je member-member Ann dah jadi cikgu yang Berjaya, ada pula yang dah jadi supervisor yang gajinya RM2k ke atas and ada pula yang boleh mengajar bakal cikgu yang nak amik sijil. Interesting right? Cikgu tadika sekarang mestilah well-educated because student sekarang ni bijak-bijak belaka. Well, enough about that. Talk more about it in my next entry ya’!

Just make it short. During my final year and final semester at IIC, my dad dah sibuk-sibuk soh isi boring amik degree. Since IIC ni under IIUM, so of course dia nak soh pilih further study there. Then again, I’m in dilemma... which course should I take? ECE, counselling, psychology or any educational fields? Actually Ann nak bekerja dulu and cari pengalaman. But because of my ages, I need to consider all stuff before I end up with something. So, my first choice is UM, degree in ECE. Then, IIUM dalam bidang counselling. The third choices in the same place, psychology at IIUM. Lastly, kat USIM in counselling. Who was my major decision maker? My beloved dad. Bila habis je study kat IIC (masa tu tengah bekerja kat nursery as teacher cum caregiver) tup... tup... dapat tau dapat amik ujian MedSi, gone through an interview and end up in here... IIUM. Now, Nur Ruzanna Rahman is taking B.Ed Counseling, first year student with the matric no 0813260.

Am I choosing the right path? I’m not sure about that because my heart is still not in the counselling. Just go with the flow but make sure not fall again from the highest place. If people say that “did you ever regret?” My answer will be NEVER because experiences are the best teacher that I ever had. Same goes to you. Just believe yourself. If you fall right now, in this moment, just don’t ever stop to rise again. Sama macam dalam cite Transformer 2: Revenge of the Fallen. Part yang terakhir bila Prime bunuh Starscream... “I rise, you fall”. Means that semua orang akan mengalami saat-saat kejatuhan dan tiada yang kekal untuk berada di atas untuk selama-lamanya. Yang hanya akan kekal di atas hanyalah Dia yang satu... Dan jangan salahkan segala-galanya jika tidak mencapai apa yang diminati. Juga kelayakan yang anda perolehi sentiasa mempunyai pelbagai pilihan.

Jul 30, 2009

My Annoying - Best - Buddy

Ann ada a short lists of best buddy. Kedua-dua jantina agak sama balance but Ann prefer to be friend with male rather than female. Ada banyak sebab and antaranya adalah because girls ni kuat jelez sesama sendiri. Anda setuju? Sila angkat tangan..huhu.. For Ann usually dapat rasa negative impression about me or rejecting or kurang ngam in other words. Ada je yang kata Ann ni naive, sombong or passive but I don't care coz' I know myself better. People around me also know who I am very well. then, yang jadi isunye sekarang, adakah anda rasa lelaki dan perempuan tak boleh jadi kawan baik? Ann akui ada close friend in my faculty. Selalu je lepak sama-sama, online sama-sama, makan sama-sama and almost everything we do together. BUT of course with limitation and boundries. Yang kelakarnya dia tu orang panggil dia ustaz secular or post-modernist but he doesn't care. However, most of people araund us think that we are as a couple who are in love. Of course we are in love but love as a good buddy. Ann suka dia sebab dia sangat caring and never left me behind. Sukar Ann nak cakap kenapa sangat attach dengan dia tapi memang susah nak cari kawan yang sanggup bersusah senang dengan kita.
Lately Ann dah jarang hang out dengan dia atas sebab jadual class yang berbeza dan perlu berhati-hati sikit because ada "mata-mata" yang memandang serong pada kami berdua. Parent Ann pun dah kenal dia siap jumpa lagi. Cewah! macam nak masuk meminang pulak. hehe. Tapi at least parent tau and I'm not going to hide anything. Dia jenis yang agak kurang aware but for me I have to. Kadang-kala terpaksa avoid dari berjumpa dengan dia. Sometimes I really sad to be like this. He doesn't know why I have to do that. Sometimes I wish we are in the same gender but what to do. NOTHING! I'm very appreaciate friendship. Frankly to say that, Ann tak ada ramai kawan kat sini. they are friendly but not suit me well. Tapi Ann ramai berkawan dengan lelaki yang sama faculty. They know about us. Bukan macam girls..GOSIP! sorry to say that but it's the truth. Selain dia, Ann ada je close friend dengan girl. Dia ok jer and jenis gila-gila walaupun naive. [sorry Nad! huhu..].
So, to all people out there... don't always easily judge the book by its cover. Sometimes the contents are more benefits than the outside. Then, if you have a good friend who has a good relationship with you, do not ever dare to stab them from behind. It is because that you might need them in the future. Love people around you and they'll do the same thing as you did.

Jul 29, 2009

I need their hugs & kisses..


It had been a few months didn’t meet my children (at nursery... previous workplace). Sangat-sangat merindui mereka! But I don’t think they still remember me because they are still young and with short term memory (3 years old kids and easily forget their “Ruzanna Jia Jia”). I would like and love to go there but I hate to disturb them because it is not proper (nursery is not a public place like playground!). So I decided to meet them during my next semester break (I do hope so!).
Why I’m so desperately miss and want to see them? For a few months I become a teacher there, my children really like me even though I always scold and punish them (they are “troublemaker”). The first month I taught them, I had lost my voice and always caught in flu (they spread the virus to me! Pity me...). They are really afraid if I’m getting angry and start giving punishment. However, they are still in my heart...
The best part, time nak balik rumah (around 5pm). Sangat-sangat suka menyakat. Especially those yang very naughty. Ayat yang paling best...
“Those who are not close their eyes, cannot go home”
Or
“I’ll capture your picture and send it to the office. Then give it to your mummy. Ask her not to come to pick you.”
Or
“Those who are giving me trouble cannot go home but sleep in this room (siap bawa tilam & bantal).”
Ann suka sangat part yang kena capture picture tu coz they really afraid. The famous words, they will say “I DON”T WANT!”. Enough to make them afraid. Haha. Tapi takleh wat selalu. Cian my children. The best part before go home, they will come to me with hugs and kisses. So sweet and touching! Time tu mula la pipi Ann penuh dengan saliva. Huhu.
For me this is the best thing that I ever had. So what about you? Do you love children very much or just so-so? Seperti yang terdapat didalam hadis yang mengatakan mereka diibaratkan seperti sehelai kain putih. Maka parent lah yang bertanggungjawab untuk mencorakkannya. Jika elok coraknya, maka cantiklah mereka dan begitulah disebaliknya.
Oleh itu, hargai dan sayangilah mereka. DO NOT ABUSE THEM!

The beginning of the journey..

Assalamualaikum & Salam Sejahtera...

Dear beloved readers...

This is my second times write something in blog. Sebelum ni just belajar dalam class jer. Al-maklum semata-mata nak complete the assignments. So by hook and crook kenala belajar. That is my first year first semester punya story. Duh! Then, a few weeks before this, I heard my beloved friend start blogging. Macam best jer dia wat. So ni saje-saje nak test market. huhu. Before this just wrote something in my lovely diary but this time I would to try something different. Just as a lovely journal.
I hope that you guys enjoy reading it and it is a very pleasure if you can drop any comments in here. It’s ok if the comment will hurt my feeling or very pleasant to be read. Last but not least, thanks for drop in and WELCOME to my www.bukupurple.blogspot.com.