Awkwardness

Hye peeps!

I baru balik dari kenduri. Kenduri malam? Yup! Kenduri doa selamat. Jiran nak berangkat ke Tanah Suci Mekah. Semoga dapat haji yang mabrur ^_^

Tadi juga I berborak dengan Cikgu yang mengajar I masa sekolah rendah. 6 Semarak. Merangkap jiran I. Tiba-tiba dia tanya...

Cikgu: Awak nanti mengajar kat mana?

I: Oo... tahun depan baru gi mengajar, cikgu. Belum habis lagi.

Cikgu: O.o... baru praktikal la ni...

Reason for this conversation - I rasa awkward sebab cikgu bertanya kepada seorang bakal cikgu. Lepas ni I jadi lagi confuse kot. Hehe.

Then, I dapat news. Jiran I nak bertunang. Besar-besaran. ^_^ Okay. Wish depa kekal hingga ke jinjang pelamin ^_^. And me? Wallahualam...

Another news *just read from FB*. My ex-classmate is engaged. Congrats Lydia Chew and Edwin! And her twins, Esther Chew? When is your turn? *wink!*

*I wish mine will be like this. Sooooo sweet~*

My Day

Hi peeps!

Hujan hari ni. Sejuk je. Tenang hati nak menjahit untuk my CF~

Tapi semalam lagi best. Shopping! Tapi I tak guna duit PTPTN. Guna duit raya. Hehe. Apa-apa pun thanks to Mr. Petani Moden sebab temankan I bershopping sambil buat sesi yang tak munasabah. Nak beli barang pun sempat bersesi sebab tak tau nak pilih mana satu. Agaknya dia pun pening. Hehe. Maaflah ye~ Hehe. Tapi dia lagi dashyat sebab bila nampak harga barang murah, dia jadi tak keruan sebab banyak sangat yang BOLEH dibeli. Hehe.

Anyway, thanks gain to you Mr. Petani Moden ^_^

Okay. Nak packing balik UIA. Nak angkut balik semua masalah yang I tinggalkan kat depan pintu rumah Jumaat lepas *sigh*

Pocketful of Sunshine

Just love this after watch Easy A movie~

By Natasha Bedingfield. (watch her version here!)..

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
I got a love and I know that it's all mine, oh, oh oh oh
Do what you want but you're never gonna break me
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me, oh, oh oh oh

Take me away, a secret place
A sweet escape, take me away
Take me away to better days
Take me away, a hiding place

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
I got a love and I know that it's all mine, oh, oh oh oh
Do what you want but you're never gonna break me
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me, oh, oh oh oh

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
I got a love and I know that it's all mine, oh, oh oh oh
Wish that you could but you ain't gonna own me
Do anything you can to control me, oh, oh no

Take me away, a secret place
A sweet escape, take me away
Take me away to better days
Take me away, a hiding place

There's a place that I go that nobody knows
Where the rivers flow and I call it home
And there's no more lies in the darkness there's light
And nobody cries, there's only butterflies

Take me away, a secret place
A sweet escape, take me away
Take me away to better days
Take me away, a hiding place

Take me away, a secret place
A sweet escape, take me away
Take me away to better days
Take me away, a hiding place

Take me away
(I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine)
A secret place
(I got a love and I know that it's all mine)
To better days take me away
Take me away
(I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine)
A secret place
(I got a love and I know that it's all mine)
Take me away, a hiding place

The sun is on my side and takes me for a ride
I smile up to the sky, I know I'll be alright
The sun is on my side and takes me for a ride
I smile up to the sky, I know I'll be alright

Penyakit Mental

Hi peeps!

Entry kali ni takmo sedih-sedih. I dah tinggalkan semua masalah kat pintu rumah I. Finally, home sweet home. Like my mum said, cuti-cuti kat rumah ni tak payah fikir sangat. Hari Ahad nanti baru "kutip" balik masalah yang I tinggal kat depan rumah tadi.

Sepanjang hari juga I habiskan masa dengan kerja-kerja suri rumahtangga. Malam-malam, start menjahit tempahan-tempahan. Ada customer yang bertanya-tanya dah. Hehe. Maaflah yer~ Ada kebaikan juga hobi menjahit craft ni sebab I nak release tension. Macam therapy. Hanya fikir tentang nak menjahit yang terbaik untuk customer.

Esok? Planning nak keluar cuci mata. Cuci mata pun kat PWTC je. Temankan someone ^_^. Ada pameran pertanian rasanya. Layankan aje walaupun bukan bidang I. Hehe. Janji I keluar dan my parents tau. Kalau sempat shopping jam, lagi bagus. Therapy jugak tu. Hehe. I memerlukan jam yang tahan lasak. Jam I yang I pakai sejak tingkatan 3 dulu, baru je rosak kat tali jam, awal tahun ni. Malas nak ganti tali. Terus beli yang baru. Sayang sebenarnya tapi I tak akan buang. Kumpul duit lagi nanti I ganti tali jam tu. Alhamdulillah ada rezeki lebih untuk tahun ni. Moga-moga murah rezeki lagi, boleh I beli emas seketul. Hehe. Tak tipu tau walaupun gayanya macam tak congruent sebab I dok gelak tadi. ^_^

So, mau sambung menjahit. Tak siap, sambung aje esok. I rabun sket nak jahit malam-malam ni. Hehe. So, see ya' then ^_^

Sacrifice

Hi peeps!

Today still not in the mood for everything. The issues still arise *just like in previous entry* and we still strive for it. Until we unable to make into reality.

Tapi kan... bila dah final ni, dugaannya lagi besar nampaknya. So much tears and pain. Have to bear with it. Dulu-dulu, kami sentiasa dahulukan senior. Nak add subject pun pikir "biarlah lepaskan senior dulu" Tidak mengungkit cuma sekarang bila dah dapat lesen "senior besar", bila macam ni, tak ada pun sesiapa nak tolong kami. How pathetic! Mungkin terlalu mengharap. Tapi asalnya taknak kacau orang lain jugak. Sepatutnya dah final ni, kehidupan lagi kurang dugaan. Lebih relaks. Tapi ni...? Sabar jelah...

Apa-apa pun, thanks to Cik Nad sebab nak menangis sama-sama. Cik Saidah yang tak nak tinggalkan I keseorangan. Cik Ruham yang sabar dan memahami *sebab kes kita berdua macam sama je sebenarnya. huhu*. Mr. B yang kalau boleh tak nak I keseorangan kat kelas Method Teaching 2 with Prof Rosnani *sangat sedih sebenarnya bila kena 'campak' sorang-sorang. Cik Hana yang sanggup mendengar dan comfort me bila I menangis kat depan orang ramai *bila teringat balik, ish! baru perasan malu. hehe*. Cik Tikah yang nak tolong buat Independent Study untuk Arab. Cik Yati yang tahan telinga dok dengar I mengomel hari-hari kat bilik dia.

Dan paling touching, Mr. Marizal yang cuba bantu pertahankan subjects. Sungguh tak sangka. Ada empathy disitu. Juga Luq... bersabar banyak-banyak. Usaha selagi mampu...

Special thanks to my lecturers and million SORRY because of my issues yang tak berkesudahan. Also my mum yang menjadi pendengar setia bila I jejak kaki ke dalam kereta. The others yang tak disebut? Thanks to you too...

If I have to extend, it is His choice. No matter how hard and strive, if it is not for me, than just let it be. Because He knows better. Just like my mum said, "ada hikmah disebaliknya...".

Okay. Have to stop because feel like wanna cry. Again. Hari ni belum cukup 4 hari menangis. Huhu. To my friends, just bear with me because I need you...

4 Years Plan

Hi peeps!

How's your day? Happy? Gloomy? Or... *could be anything*

And my day? Not so good and pleasant to know. Full of stress! This is my third day in add/drop subject. As usual, I predict it will be challenging before these days come. And it's proven!

Anyway, it is not like I don't want to share it with you but just don't know how to simplify it. Make you understand it very well. It's all about system. *sigh* But I just believe that every problems have solutions. There is a will, there is a way. Just bare in mind that He want us to think about it. Everything has hikmah...

Just like yesterday. A sudden plan with Cik Nad and Cik Iffa- out to buy some groceries. But then, have to cancel it because waited too long for a bus. Tired of waiting + will be traffic jam because it almost 5 p.m. So, paham-paham ajelah ye. So, we end up by not going. Suddenly, during on my way back to mahallah, my shoes got problem. Then, when I think about it, maybe that's the reason for "there is NO bus just now". It is just a simple matter but got hikmah...

For my current situation, if there is no solution by tomorrow, I will doom. But it's okay *I guess*. If He wanted me to extend semester, I relakan aje. Redha. It's not like pasrah semata-mata. I did many efforts to ensure that it's not going to happen. I hope that my last chance will give my smile back to me. Positive!

And hope you *the readers* will pray something good will happen tomorrow. Ameen...

So, got to go to class right now. Focusing here and now. See you later! ^_^

Anak Dara Pemalas

Assalamualaikum semua~

Dah lama I tak berblogging. Sibuk dengan urusan hal rumahtangga yang tak berkesudahan. Part-timer la katakan. Macam Cik Nad kata "berbakti untuk ibubapa". Cuti 2 bulan yang agak penuh. Ditambah pula dengan bulan Ramadhan dan persiapan menanti bulan Syawal. Alhamdulillah, dapat juga cuti seminggu. Sayang UIA lebih sebab 'memberi' cuti tambahan. ^_^

Selain tu, sejak habis praktikal baru-baru ni, I jadi EXTRA empathy. Mana taknya, sekarang tak boleh tengok orang susah sikit especially my mum yang kat rumah ni. Adik-adik I yang lain, typical-tradisional-Malay-man. The youngest sister, biasalah. Anak bongsu. Manja lebih. Yang kerjakan hal rumahtangga ni, harapkan my mum sorang je. Orang lelaki ni bukan tau apa. Ingat kerja-kerja kat rumah ni macamlah mudah. Senang nak uruskan. Haish! Typical minded! So, rutin harian memang pack. Dibulan puasa, tak payah cakaplah. Pagi-pagi I dah mengerjakan jahit kraf. Tu pun minggu pertama je. Hari lain, tolong my mum buat kuih. Bila pukul 4 je, ready kemas-kemas. Then, masak untuk berbuka. Malam-malam, dah flat. Alhamdulillah, sekarang ni macam dah relaks sket. Tu pun kena tolong-tolong sket buat kuih sebab ada tempahan lagi. Nak ikutkan tak sanggup dah. Huhu. Sampai la ni, ceq muak dah makan biskut. ^_^

Then, ditambah dengan bekerja keras membanting tulang di rumah Opah. Adeh! Haru~~ Dibuat pula dengan "tiada anak-anak dara yang berkelayakan" untuk bersama-sama membanting tulang. *paham-paham sendiri*. I pun tak berkelayakan juga. Maklumlah I budak bandar. Typical people said that "anak dara bandar tak reti buat kerja rumah". Tapi yang peliknya *from my observation* kan... anak dara kampung pun sama je. I assumed that they are much expert bila menguruskan hal rumahtangga. Ada yang lagi teruk pun ada. So, lelaki-lelaki diluar sana, jangan ingat anak dara bandar tak reti buat kerja yer~ Juga I kurang gemar typical-tradisional-Malay-man. Bukan tak suka. Cuma kurang gemar. Harap maklum ^_^.

Sekarang, selepas terlebih buat kerja, I demam. Sekarang bertemankan hot porridge. Minum kopi pun payau T_T *help~*

Tak terlambat kan nak ucap "Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir & Batin~"