Antara minat, kelayakan dan pilihan

Didalam kehidupan anda, adakah anda dapat memiliki ketiga-tiganya? Adakah ia menepati dan sentiasa member kebahagiaan kepada anda? Ann pasti tidak semua yang memiliki apa yang diingini dan begitu juga dengan Ann. Kehidupan lampau Ann mengajar erti bagaimana kesakitan, keperitan dan kepayahan untuk memiliki ketiga-tiganya. Frankly to say that Ann bukanlah bijak, talented or genius. Ann sendiri pun tak pernah plan untuk sampai ke tahap ini.

Dulu-dulu masa lepas SPM, Ann nak sangat jadi nurse because of my condition (Ann will tell you guys in the next entry). Result SPM agak ok even though taklah sehebat mana pun tapi enough untuk melayakkan diri in that field. My dad pn ada jer tanya about this and he emphasized on these 3 magic words: minat, kelayakan dan pilihan. He never agreed with my decision but yet still giving me chance to do according to my desire. So, isilah borang UPU for the next steps but unfortunately, tak dapat untuk jadi nurse. At the same time, that moment, Ann sedang melanjutkan study in STPM. So, Ann decided to keep continue in that level. Orang kata STPM sangat susah dan macam Upin & Ipin kata...betul, betul, betul~! So Ann pun kecundang dan keciwa yang teramat sangat. Diibaratkan seperti Ann terjatuh dari KLCC dan jatuhnya diatas besi yang keras. Bukan diatas tilam yang empuk. So mesti anda dapat bayangkan betapa sakitnya ketika itu. And of course my dad blame me until I feel so hard for me to wake up and gain my strength back.

In the same year, dapatlah offer letter dari International Islamic College (IIC) yang offered several courses. Salah satunya adalah Diploma in Early Childhood Education (ECE). Very interesting but in that time, I had a dilemma. Disebabkan Ann nak sangat-sangat jadi nurse or in any medical field, Ann nak try MAHSA. Amik Diploma in Physiotherapy. So Ann pun berfikir. Dua-dua course ni very interesting to discover. Kedua-duanya IPTS but yet still different in term of the fees. MAHSA sangat mahal because lebih kepada medical program dan tak macam IIC. My dad pun dah pesan awal-awal yang dia tak nak support dari segi fees. Dia rela anaknya amik PTPTN because dia nak Ann lebih responsible with what am I doing. More focused and tak nak pisang berbuah dua kali. In the end, I decided to be in IIC. Alhamdulillah Ann tak regret pun tapi sangat bersyukur dan Ann rasa sesuai dengan jiwa Ann.

Bercakap tentang course tu, Ann tau Ann akan deal with young children but masa tu taklah suka sangat budak-budak ni. Besa-besa je. Tapi makin lama Ann makin berminat dan terus jatuh cinta. Dari apa yang Ann dah belajar, ada juga input-input dari segi Sains and medical. Ann banyak belajar pasal human behaviour, development and thinking. Ia dinamakan psychology. Tapi Ann hanya emphasized on young children below 7 years old. So, ianya sangat interesting. Walaupun hanya train sebagai preschool teacher or caregiver but we are well-trained. Ramai je member-member Ann dah jadi cikgu yang Berjaya, ada pula yang dah jadi supervisor yang gajinya RM2k ke atas and ada pula yang boleh mengajar bakal cikgu yang nak amik sijil. Interesting right? Cikgu tadika sekarang mestilah well-educated because student sekarang ni bijak-bijak belaka. Well, enough about that. Talk more about it in my next entry ya’!

Just make it short. During my final year and final semester at IIC, my dad dah sibuk-sibuk soh isi boring amik degree. Since IIC ni under IIUM, so of course dia nak soh pilih further study there. Then again, I’m in dilemma... which course should I take? ECE, counselling, psychology or any educational fields? Actually Ann nak bekerja dulu and cari pengalaman. But because of my ages, I need to consider all stuff before I end up with something. So, my first choice is UM, degree in ECE. Then, IIUM dalam bidang counselling. The third choices in the same place, psychology at IIUM. Lastly, kat USIM in counselling. Who was my major decision maker? My beloved dad. Bila habis je study kat IIC (masa tu tengah bekerja kat nursery as teacher cum caregiver) tup... tup... dapat tau dapat amik ujian MedSi, gone through an interview and end up in here... IIUM. Now, Nur Ruzanna Rahman is taking B.Ed Counseling, first year student with the matric no 0813260.

Am I choosing the right path? I’m not sure about that because my heart is still not in the counselling. Just go with the flow but make sure not fall again from the highest place. If people say that “did you ever regret?” My answer will be NEVER because experiences are the best teacher that I ever had. Same goes to you. Just believe yourself. If you fall right now, in this moment, just don’t ever stop to rise again. Sama macam dalam cite Transformer 2: Revenge of the Fallen. Part yang terakhir bila Prime bunuh Starscream... “I rise, you fall”. Means that semua orang akan mengalami saat-saat kejatuhan dan tiada yang kekal untuk berada di atas untuk selama-lamanya. Yang hanya akan kekal di atas hanyalah Dia yang satu... Dan jangan salahkan segala-galanya jika tidak mencapai apa yang diminati. Juga kelayakan yang anda perolehi sentiasa mempunyai pelbagai pilihan.